Dear Reader:

I think one of the worst scenarios being played out by my new drug (that obviously doesn’t like me) is the timing… September and October are my two most favorite months and they are passing me by in a dazed semi-conscious state.

By now I would have a house filled pumpkins and all kinds of fall/ Halloween decorations . I look around sadly… I have about as much energy as that ant( actually I think the ant might have more.)

But I did get four artificial pumpkins and placed two on each top step and secondary step because Brooke had given me the cool torches leading up to the steps -they are fiery gold and it did look cool with my porch lamp -Two more aluminum pumpkins sit on the bench… Jeff cleaned up yard yesterday and he made sure everything looked terrific for anyone walking or driving by…Felt considerably better.

Than yesterday I walked outside to check my mail and something looked off. Someone had taken two of my pumpkins! Usually I have a hugh amount of fall and Halloween decorations paraphernalia and nothing has ever been touched. And then this year I have those four pumpkins and somebody takes two. I was in shock… the porch light was on… pretty brazen and disturbing at the same time.

I thought of the timing of this pill preceded by my flu and birthday cancelled and beautiful October right outside and I can’t enjoy it. So much bad timing associated with this whole change in my chemo treatments.

Since I have plenty of time to reminisce happier Octobers.. I started looking back on those special race for the cure family days and it made me so happy to have my entire family support me every year.

The first year ( Tommy and I were the sole walkers for the race) and then Doodle, Lassie joined followed by Carrie, then four month old Eva Cate , John and Mandy, followed by baby Rutledge , Mollie and Walsh and then Kaitlyn arrived and we knew Tommy was smitten-their friends started joining in and we grew and grew. It just goes to show that love grows exponentially!

It was the last year for our team-it was no longer going to be held on Daniel Island but N Charleston -the grandchildren were growing and had other events now and we thought we would go out on top! ( Thanks to all you generous donors!

But last weekend Rutledge showed up for Breast Cancer Awareness Month in this!

So until tomorrow … so much to fight for and live for … I am fighting hard!!!

Today is my favorite day… Winnie the Pooh

Had the best advice from my oncology nurse Linda Carson that was common sense trying to get me to stop putting too much stress on myself and Debi Clayton who couldn’t swallow for ten weeks – her esophagus got burnt in radiation and she got through that… what a blessing when she walked through that door. God is good!

Tomorrow is another day and no doubt a better one!