Dear Reader:

It dawned on me one day that what I am doing right now is creating and designing the life I always wanted.

I have lived a lot of my life, like the carriage horses with the blinders on….staring straight ahead…just trying to pull myself and my family through another day…oblivious to the outside world going on around me. (Just living in a type of self-imposed survival fish bowl)

But now, for the first time, I realize that the only one who can hold me back, with designing the life I want to live, is me. No more excuses!

And now that the blinders are finally off and peripheral vision surrounds me…my “new eyes” are seeing life so differently. Nowadays I can “see” God’s Hand in every thing going on in my life.

Even this recent unexpected home “renovation” was all part of His plan. I was given enough  time to acquire the funding I would need to pull this off…

The 2:00 a.m. worries over the aging home have suddenly disappeared and I am sleeping like a baby (actually better than a baby)…because God forced my hand to take action…it was the right time to get my house on a  firmer foundation, along with my life.

So many times we think the timing in our lives is completely wrong, that it is off-kilter…but that is because we are looking at time through our restricted “chronos” lenses…whereas God’s universe is timeless and everlasting.

It isn’t until later, with the wisdom of hindsight, that we understand why some situations or events happened when they did. It is then that we realize it was actually perfect timing.

Madeleine L’ Engle ( 40 Day Journey) understood this when she observed:

” The gods we erect (money, power, prestige) are easier to worship than the Creator of the universe. They’re more comprehensible. The God I believe in is not comprehensible in finite, mortal terms. 

God is infinite, immortal, all-knowing. I have a point of view, you have a point of view. But God has VIEW. Our problem is that we don’t like having to depend on that which we cannot control, manipulate, dominate.” 

Cancer was and is an on-going lesson in learning how to pray for healing in both attitude and perspective so that the day arrives when we can fully “let go and let God.”

Every day feels like a new slate now. I find myself taking more and more bags to Goodwill. I crave the simple life…an uncluttered life dedicated to spending more time with family and friends, less time on senseless spending for “stuff”, and special time with God.

If, at the end of our life here on earth…we can say…“We Designed the Life We Loved” (the life meant for us to live by God) then I think the angels in heaven will raise up their voices in joy and jubilation!

So until tomorrow…Let’s get busy getting rid of anything that stands between us and the life that was originally designed for us to live.

“Today is my favorite day”  Winnie the Pooh

*Even my moon flowers are, not only adapting, to the back yard fence but loving it…the blooms are much bigger than they were on the front porch…

*Brooke and I are heading up to Columbia later today to meet up with Jackson and Libby at Jackson’s house…Ben plays in a Reunion Band from high school/college and they are performing this evening…I am sure it will bring back lots of memories.