I remember the days of working full time as a teacher and single mother of three children and staying angry at time. How unfair it was to have the same amount of hours, minutes, and seconds each day while the list of everyday responsibilities grew and grew and grew. Something had to give!
Time began to feel like a burden… a yoke on my shoulders pulling me down. I kept chastising myself for not being more structured… and then one day last week I came across the Gaines’ spring edition ( Magnolia Journal) whose theme was on time.
If you have ever watched any of their early HGTV episodes you picked up quickly that Joanna Gaines was one of the most organized structured people on the show… with then four, now five, children and numerous projects she would have had to be structured to stay afloat of it all.
But even Joanna admits that she got to the point where efficiency started controlling her time over everything… even the precious moments that were worthy of her time.
She tells the story of a family reunion at her parents’ home which began happily enough-but then she started fretting over getting her youngest, Crew, home and in bed by 8. If not he would be cranky the next day and they would all pay the price. As she started packing up her father came up and asked her to stay and watch the sunset with him. Her father rarely asked for anything but Joanna regretfully told him “no” she had to get Crew home.
She began to regret her decision almost immediately and then Covid hit and she couldn’t be with her father. Just recently for their first reunion after vaccinations she made a date with him to watch the sun set. Joanna concluded that too much structure leaves little space to simply be delighted… to let a moment catch you by surprise!
So until tomorrow…It wasn’t until I faced a health crisis that seemed destined to shorten my life that I began to view it as the greatest gift of all and now I leave time to garden and watch light dapple through the trees.
I now understand that sometimes wasted time isn’t wasted time at all… but the best use of my moments and my most valuable resource.
” Today is my favorite day” Winnie the Pooh
Results of my precious time in the garden!